thts bad

it was a wiered day.1st day i put off the net thing.n findin maself no where.jus no one around.evryone is damn busy.yea my al close frnz too.had an aweful day.i dint did anythn n dunno y she's behavin lik she is nt intrested.yea got loads o mistake in history.thrz no fun.i slept so i think i cudnt tak to ma best buddy.else my lif is empty.i dun noe y today m feelin LONELY !

get off

i dun noe wts goin around.........
but i noe wts growing inside me......the hatred.......i wanna teach her the lesson n jus wanna kick her ass off!!
no matter wt happen......i jus dun lik to see her daily by side here.....
daily in morning...sitting in class near by.........
i jus hate her n dun want her.......i wanna win.....n sure i ll.......i dun lik to loose......i jus hate when she smiles.
i jus hate hate n hate her by all my heart......!!!!!!!

yea i shall i hav done few things earlier.....i guess.......things stopped me ....was a hpe n miscnception......then
i jus wanted t her to take a back step
but now i dusnt matter to me......jus matter is to get rid off her.........n make her cry..!!!

a thing of routine.....

its sunday again....sunday .....which is weierd 4 me always...since 4yrs
n its the time when i miss a few ppl d most........

Start of the day brings a memory a thought of sum1 tht cannot b wid u....n thing is......now u dun want to b the person..!!
but moments r to cherish n remembered....!!

u cant cut ur strings so easily.it takes a lot to do tht..........n its really .....hard to do...!!!

i usually hate sundays.........coz of......all mind wandering...n feelin o jus left to do nothing
i like busy days "busy days giv me more output........n i luv to do n jus burn myself.."
but nw only in a ri8 directin........m closing all time wasters of mine.....

hope i ll make it!!!

a new day.......

its a new day......but many things r getting rotten!!
many of them is making me sick.
since a few yrs......m unable to undstd wt lyf is tryin to teach......
it make me happy......n snatch tht happiness after a while.....feel lik m a LooSeR!!!

A new day.......yea having a hope of better n happy today.....is the only thing which lemme go!!!
i miss my childhood days.....where i neva seen my eyes  wet........

m cryin inside......yet cant show anyone to laugh at it.....its jus...me my life....n me again!!

lost

i m feeling lik lost.standing nowhere.i dun noe how to react.i jus went out o my eyes n cudnt stop yea.mi8 b m a v bad frn.i dun deserve anyone.its jus lif is showin me NO signal everywhere.m jus plannin to isolate myself.coz more i go 2 ppl more i hurt thm.every one hates me.n yea karna b chaiye.M gud 4 nothn.Feel lik a looser.My further steps r 2 b taken soon.I jus dun wanna open nw.M getting off. i m tearing coz i cudnt stop ppl hating me.m loosin every near ones.ok.dun noe wt to do.it jus broke u hard n flood ur eyes.

wt's ri8??

i dun noe what i hav done is wrong or ri8.......
but wt i feel is a guilt......of being so.....
last ni8 th bitch had a outpoured stomach[vomit]
n i dint cared........[pretended]]....dint help[as per m nt concerned..]
but all the time.....i was feelin bad.......n still i am!!
i noe i cud hav hav stand @ d bak....b help her......
but.....as my other partner said......ki u hav to do this.!!
m confessing here.....coz i feel the guilt......yea dun hav guts to say to her.......plz forgive lord.....i dint did my duty of humanism......i was a bad!!
now today the other one was ill......i partly helped.......but i saw tht bitch was standing beside....
its a v bad feel t me........feels like....m a victim......i did wrong!!.....sorry lord!! :(((

its the of revenge bitch........
u hav given me enuf torture........its my time.....u hav taken my many frnz away........u hav done things which jus made me angry @ u......
u neva wanted to be with me..then y u jus pretend........

jus fukk off.........now i dun really care.....
u made me hate myself.......but best thing is.......u made me to deal wid these situations........now its my time to be bitch,,,,,,,,,

ATTITUDE bitch.........u hav shown enuf!!!

 now its my turn......

n u noe wt????? i m not alone this time.........n i ll take each n everything bak.........got itttttt.........

fuk off .........fuk off.........fuk off..........

half of my heart.......

I was born in the arms of imaginary friends
Free to roam, made a home out of everywhere I've been

Then you come on crashing in
Like the realest thing
Trying my best to understand
All that your love can bring

Oh, half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart's got a right mind
To tell you that I can't keep lovin' you, can't keep lovin' you
Oh, with half of my heart

I was made to believe I'd never love somebody else
Made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself

Lonely was the song I sang
'Til the day you came
Showing me another way
And all that my love can bring

Oh, half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart's got a right mind
To tell you that I can't keep lovin' you, can't keep lovin' you
Oh, with half of my heart, with half of my heart

Your faith is strong, but I can only fall short for so long
Down the road, later on
You will hate that I never gave more to you
Than half of my heart

But I can't stop lovin' you, I can't stop lovin' you
I can't stop lovin' you, I can't stop lovin' you,
I can't stop lovin' you with half of my
Half of my heart, oh half of my heart

Half of my heart's got a real good imagination
Half of my heart's got you
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That half of my heart won't do

Half of my heart is a shot gun wedding
To a bride with a paper ring
And half of my heart is the part of a man
Who's never truly loved anything

Half of my heart, oh half of my heart
Half of my heart, oh half of my heart
Half of my heart, oh half of my heart

i jus love this song........as if sum1 has sung 4 me........:)

bhuh uh uh!!!!!

today.......m getting a feeling to be a kid again......so tht i can be around ma mum n dad.......always.........near thr heart.
its hard....its jus a wish....
m being rude.....mi8 be.......i dun noe y.....

Days r goin a lil wiered......lots o things had t be done.......time is jus wasted.........
lost n missing sumthing feeeling is whole day long.....!!!!!
intusions r getting wrong......examzz r aproaching....
n havin a mood swifts!!
mood.......i dun noe but its bit off....

i got nothin to say but i wanna say......i think i shall study......
finding sumthing whole day long........getting nothin!!!
looser........feeling!!!!

Feeling to listen all sad songs......but m nt gonna do tht it lead to sleep else.......oh mi8 b m half asleep.......
.yea meri nind puri nahi hui aaj.......n honi b nahi hai......god.....damn it!!!!1 [i behave a lot rude n ajeeb when this happens]
kal subah subah classss.........i hate morning classes........n then ruski,,,,,,,agghhhh!!!!!!!

death is the only beginning !!!!

oh.....today is my best frn's bday......
n m sad ki....i cant wish him /call him......
but i made my other best frn call him.....;)
missin him lot here.......
its really hard,....n ajeeb,,....tht few things we cant explain to anyone....n cant tell anyone...
its being many yrs we r frnz.......n best part is.....we r still best buddies!!!
i always had ur bak when i needed.....i always had a laugh wid u.......yea....best of all is......m ur best frn :P
all d best buddy........4 d futute.......n be as u r.........always!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY........:)

my spicy life

life...here 4 me is always sweet n sour symphony..........
where i hav world's most beautiful famiyl,freinds........at the same time....my dreams r making me crazy.....

Days r thr which r spent laughing........spent doin nothing........sleeping......n sumtimes in grief...n tension.

i lov ma life.....jus i observed..."days spent in laughing n livin dint taught me anything.......but days wid grief....gave me a lesson.......way a lofe to live.....!!!."

Dreamzz.....gal wid unlimited dreams.........yea.......tht's wt i hav called......

freindz.......few r gems in ma life......n few r thr to make the impossible thing ..which hard to believe......they did tht.......

 Family.....best family is mine.....perfect!!


Else i ll write in further blogs.......coz i luv writing n talkin........