when u loose a friend...

Its been my birthday on diwali……..yea awesum naa….whole world celebrates it….it happens quite rarely..

Had a blast…had a surprise party…..fun with frnzz……lovely day……..thanxx frnzz!!

But as my blog rule…how can sumthing disturbing doesn’t happen…..

Really dun noe I shall call them even frnz or not…

There is a person who dosent talk to me….coz o sum clashes…..n now she is with my those so called old frnzz……..n yea eventually….their attitude have been changed….

Well……..that is not the matter!

Matter is we r frnz since 4 yrs…..they dint even wish me……isnt it shokin…….ok I understand…if u cant cum….cud have messeged/called/smsd……

That means I mean nothin to u????

Yea u can say its just a birthday wish……does it make any diffrence?

Well…….yea it does….atleast it shows how much u care……

I dun say wish me @ dot 12…..i noe everybody cant…….

But if we r frnz………..cummon we meet daily……we liv in a same hostel……on top o tht….i attend each n every birthday o u 4.

I never misbehaved….i never quarrelled…..i never complained….n I dint expected this.

It’s a v.small thing……..but truly………..it hurts.

loosingggggg......

N in 7 days one o u ll be having a birthday………..i dun noe…….wt shall I do?? Shall I wish?? Shall I gift?? Nobody to converse!!! Duh!! L(

When u loose  a frn….

When u loose a frn….it seems ….a part o u is lost…..u r half dead inside…

U can call agai n again…u can cry….but its o no use….coz u hav lost it!

When u loose a frn….u make urself a dry rose….which is dead n closed in a book!

U loose all ur chances …to smile.

All u have is..u n ur miseries……un wanted sadness……

U have is just “u”…..its gud sumtimes…..but u noe u not happy

When u loose a frn….a charm a fun o u 2 be a king among is lost…

U lost ur each pretty leaf of ur liffe tree….

U lost a part inside u….u loose urself…

Sumtimes u r helpless…….u jus want them bak…but life has plans of its own.

Everytime u jus make effort to another new person….eventually u got it cut off….

May be…m in those few….who spent their life alone…coz they r jus not gud  enuf

They cant to what others want…..coz they hav a fate of “no frn”

heart broken

I wanna ask u sumtimes ….do u miss me as I do.

Do u feel like….to do a thing is waste when m nt around….coz I feel lik tht sumtimes….

But I wanna ask u….do u feel d same???

Hey really missin u here….ur talks….buut in d mid I hate u too…when u dun talk like as I do….n when u always….complain….n make my mood off…..

Sometimes I jus want to b wid u.

Ssly m finding ways to talk to u secretly…but when I get it ……I think…let it be,,,,,,,ya mann ni maanta.

U told me….u cant giv me wt I want coz I cudnt do it 4 u…

Well….wt I want….i neva got wt I want….yea ssly….u were better b4…atleast it was easy to trust u….u changed d way….i dun y I accepted it…may be I din wanna loose u….but wt happened…………………..life changed when it was meant to be a start…………means….end in d beginning????............i was shoked…n ws nt able to undstd it all d time. All I can do was……..cry! then it was jus a game to u…

I always felt like the another one….the “3,rd” one…..the “wrong one”  one who is never wanted….jus an “option”………….u can neva undstd…….hw it feels lik it.

N nw all those things hav gone……..wt u think…wt I still want??

Its v easy  4 u to say……..bye…but I cud never reply to it. Coz none o the time I want it. But I hav to accept it yeah…………

Yeah tht mi8 hurt u……..but u neva take my “no” ssly……..u need was a jus a reason…….reason 4 a “no”.

I gave it to u……….n I lost u again!!!.................aha……..wait….i neva had u ri8??

I dun noe….my tears had dried out tht day or wt……I cud hav cried….but happiness of seeing u was enuf to cover it.

I wanted to spend sum time….which we neva had….but u had v different plans. Sry  but I dissappionted n ruined ur plan!

Blame as much as u can….because…..u neva understood me…..love is a different thing!

Life has managed to teach u everything….this time…I learned “kill ur emotions”!!!! L(

 [21/9/11]

good days

Somedays r so beautiful to liv in….tht heals us within!

Had a nice day so called “nature’s day”..it was a windy day……..breeze all around…….lovely…

We were about to fly……hehe….we went out….jus 4 a walk…

Then we went to oblasnaya….lovely trees r thr…

Loved the yeloow….red green………autmn!

Played n bohat saare seb[apple] tode…….till I guess 2 hrs…….

It was real fun….that one….oh tht twin one….lemme catch it….sheh tht one is stuk…….lmaooooooo

It was really gr8 moment……..n yea after tht stroming photo session…

It was fun! :)

Well life is gud….but still miss few ppl around….few r busy….few r far…few hav no contact….few hav forgotten….but yeah frnz miss u a lot. I ll be in touch soon. For sumtime.

[happened: 1st oct 2011}

alone

Its wiered to  be alone sumtimes.

When u dun likewhat other ppl r  doing.coz thtz absurd

The only thing left is…u ..n things kept u busy

Aatif’s voice….intrest in science….choclate…..r things which never leave u when ur mood is off……

Frnz…………family……..r things….which u need …but u dun hav it

Then when u see ppl around…n u cant be with them….coz  coz…….they dun want u. u r uncompatible wid u.

Yes I see smiling faces….tlkin n doin masti….but mera mann ni karta un ke saath jane ko. Chahu to jaa sakti hu….but dun noe y it happens so often.

Bit off tuday. Thigs changes sumtimes n u cant help it .

I hav only books n aatif. Help me aatif…..ur voice is my heart…..