gudbye 2013

last day of the year....
and its the end of 2013...
lemme see if i can summon it up...
well it was a ggr8 yr...spicy than ever!!

gud things..
found lov o ma life...
finally graduate..
some pain in d ass ppl r out o ma life..
had awesumn trips in russia...
my bro got married..
learned lessons of ma life...

from the very start o moscow's new yr to
travelling alone..though i cudnt achhieve wt i wanted..
did things wud never thought ki mai karungi...
got rid of stupid smolensk n the hostel...tht worse grp..
ahh...what a mental peace .
to had the best moments o ma life wid sum1 speacial...
finding myself...changing myself...a makeover..
photography...saw world from a a v dfrt perspective...
had a quality time wid ma bro...
wore sooo many clothes...did too much shoppin..
felt lik princess. found new cousins...n now..
living n working hard...doing things..to get it.
i think..its was d bst yr.

well emotionally many bad things happened..but i prefer
my good memories to be in the mind...baaki i dun need.

n 2013...plz take away all ur jinx..it shall b a new start now :)

hope in new yr...
wt i planned cud cum true...
n to start a brand new life...
n to be more awesumn than previous yr :)

look at u...

in this world ...
there r less people who ll understand u.
who ll c wt u want...
who ll make u feel home...
n sometimes..u ll be amazed how u r left alone..
n everyone is sorrounding u n shouting at u...
do this...do that...u r mad...what,how can u do this..
still u noe..u survived each situation n made best out o it..
i noe no mistake is ever greater than a solution...
but sometimes u think...move on..n dun correct it..
n guess wt..
u ll amazed by life at a silent tide once again...
hey...u left it undone...
"do it again"...solve it...clean it up...its high time!!!
yea life shouts like tht sometimes...
.
.
u felt again like..
damn! i never thought tht wud cum up...
.
well...
slowly u hav to wait for the sun to rise again..
let again the morning light show u the path...
which u were searching from a flash light.
Once again...gather up urself n say...
m not over...i ll fight.
.
.
thtz the moment...u r enlightened...
u became a warrior...
.
n u look at the world...n say..i noe none o u helped..
but i m glad...i love myself too..
.
.
yes love urself...
coz u ll cry for the world...but it ll not care for u..
u ll love sum or many..but they wont cum back..
but if u love urself..
u ll never need anyone.

loving it

well yea at this point in  my life....
i have been doing things which i think is ri8....yea it mi8 b not ri8...or mi8 b not appropriate
its ok....i am living my life n am happy for that

a sincere note to those who hate me....or thinks i am not worth all i have....
i dont care what you think....because...u lik me or not...i am always around people who loves me,n am happy to have them.
u wanna go....go.
i am used to it.!!

my recent life...well...
had a wonderfull time/weekend recently....
its like...what may have they said if dreams could speak....
without thinking of past,future.....i lived in present!
n loved it!

n as they say...
u dont learn untill u r lived..!!
so i am living it!
n happy......:)

how to be happy

dekh simple rule is....
ignore d sadness n haso gaao muskuraao.....

days of sadness never change....untill u want a change....
it depends on how we c the world....n world ll show u back that....exactly lik a mirror...

th must be sumthing...lik me...i hav music...so i rewinnd myself to music nw n thn...n it plays well....

i was damn addicted to be a saddie....
but then i thought....its enuf man....dun wanna be sad anymore....so i jus made a small descion....

i ll say to mysself...n ll try....each day....tht m happy...m happy...
n take things in a laughter....
lik sumone teases u....u laugh at tht...n say....no one can do better than him....
if sumthing happens....lik...sumthin is ruined...yeyy! its time to get a new one....
thtz called a perspective to see things.....

n i hav seen people ll like u more...when u r hillarious....n ll cum to u...
so u ll not be able to get time for those saddie emotions....n saddie stupid BORING life....

if no one is thr....cummon....thr r less ppl who can enjoy themselves....

its a beautiful world....see it ....
n u have got only ONE life....dun waste it in crying...

so cheer up.....anyone who is finding happiness....shud noe...its within u only...!!

so its rightly said..."if u r happy today....u r happy always"!!!

#dun expect
#be happy in wt u get
#n love wt u do....

tadda!!! u r happy :)

watch this...

what a wonderful world....:)))

happy moments

yea its ri8 u all noe it...how i liv here...
but hav a few happy moments too...
see...

ll share the ones i remembber...n easy to tell....

new yr celebration.....

yea it was a blast...
though not what i expected...
but i guess better than tht...
last yr in russia...n yea i tell u...it was my best new yr start here...
njoyed a lot wid frnz...under beautiful kremlin....:)

next....
seasons of russia...
colorfull Autumn

..
white beauty of winters....
everyday its diffrent...
n yea its fucking freezing....lik helll.....ssly...
u can be numb...in couple of mins...

parties...

n dancing in parties...thtz wt i njoyed most here........


these r jus few...had many of them...
so its not exactly i hate everything about here....
coz  i hav learned to be happy......

:)

n i noe ....when i update a blog about.....oh how how sad i was....
many ppl comment n reply me.....
not in happy ones?? y so??
well these r also the feelings...
so few ones now m keeping to myself :)

life must...

uhh...
enuff......i cant stay away longer now...
seems lil addicted to blog...
many many things r thr...

only 2 reasons behind my absence...
a life setting exam...
n freedom....o writng wtvr i want...

yea i hav moved on n moved to a another pace o freedom in my life
now i listen to myself....n do wt i think i shud...
well yea at few places yet i m compromising myself...
but thtz d demand of life...wt can u do...when u
hav put ur legs in 2 boats...u hav to maintain balance..
n thtz how my life is...balancing myself in situations...

learning in life..
1] no matter wt u do...how u do...
there is a place where ppl leave u alone...
n say go...go....
its a matter  of fact...yea u hav to be alone at sum places...
no one can do ur work...
but when ur near ones say lik this...it hurts a lil.
but i hav overcumed it i guess...
do whatever u think is right....coz in anycase ppl ll blame u only...
listen to urself...

2] when u show urself...
n u say true words...ppl wud hate u...
n yea when u cum to noe it....feels lik...m i full
of spines??
yea fine....i dun care...do whtvr u think is ri8...
m not cuming behind u....hav my self respect full on...

3] to be happy....
yea thtz the thins m on this yr...
see laughter in every thing...n u ll be happy..
when u r happy...ppl cum to u..
n thtz  how u can jus try to be happy...slowly..u ll be happy
n yea u ll got to noe...ppl love the happy u.

n tryin to achive sumthin...
tht keep me all time busy...

but damnn m tensed.......so less time...
lot work has to be done....
bless me god...

but yea as they say... "life must go on.."