heart broken

I wanna ask u sumtimes ….do u miss me as I do.

Do u feel like….to do a thing is waste when m nt around….coz I feel lik tht sumtimes….

But I wanna ask u….do u feel d same???

Hey really missin u here….ur talks….buut in d mid I hate u too…when u dun talk like as I do….n when u always….complain….n make my mood off…..

Sometimes I jus want to b wid u.

Ssly m finding ways to talk to u secretly…but when I get it ……I think…let it be,,,,,,,ya mann ni maanta.

U told me….u cant giv me wt I want coz I cudnt do it 4 u…

Well….wt I want….i neva got wt I want….yea ssly….u were better b4…atleast it was easy to trust u….u changed d way….i dun y I accepted it…may be I din wanna loose u….but wt happened…………………..life changed when it was meant to be a start…………means….end in d beginning????............i was shoked…n ws nt able to undstd it all d time. All I can do was……..cry! then it was jus a game to u…

I always felt like the another one….the “3,rd” one…..the “wrong one”  one who is never wanted….jus an “option”………….u can neva undstd…….hw it feels lik it.

N nw all those things hav gone……..wt u think…wt I still want??

Its v easy  4 u to say……..bye…but I cud never reply to it. Coz none o the time I want it. But I hav to accept it yeah…………

Yeah tht mi8 hurt u……..but u neva take my “no” ssly……..u need was a jus a reason…….reason 4 a “no”.

I gave it to u……….n I lost u again!!!.................aha……..wait….i neva had u ri8??

I dun noe….my tears had dried out tht day or wt……I cud hav cried….but happiness of seeing u was enuf to cover it.

I wanted to spend sum time….which we neva had….but u had v different plans. Sry  but I dissappionted n ruined ur plan!

Blame as much as u can….because…..u neva understood me…..love is a different thing!

Life has managed to teach u everything….this time…I learned “kill ur emotions”!!!! L(

 [21/9/11]