you decide

Its long…yea daily life se no updates……

Ok……..mera exam tha yaar aaj……….thoda to chalta hai ri8…..

Ok u r waitin for my best n worst…..to I let u decide today……wt u say worse n best…

Had a paper…..so whole time padai…ok ok I noe….kitaab thi mere saamne…….n dimaag…….london paris newyork…..or jus near in  russia….few miles away from my city….”tver”.

Yea……actually….examz  was  the time…..chahe jo bhi ho jaye….i noe before exam we ll talk…

Wo all the best kehne ka tarika hi different hota tha yaar……jo india ki yaad dila deta tha…….”fod ke aana”//…..i noe……sabhi bolte hai aisa…kya naya ab??........are yaha koi aisa nahi bolta naa……

N har exam ke pehle…thoda boost mil jaata tha….baaki saare frnz se vo jyada ache se samjh sakta tha…coz hum dono ek hi condition mai hote the….

Well….ab chah kar bhi mai use call ni karti….phone ki taraf hazaar baar dekhti hu…par use uthati tak nahi…..

This I first realized when……..i was goin to give “operative surgery” exam……was sitting thr waiting for my call….n mind direct………past mai……..:( I think tht was the first exam….i had given lik tht…n was a mess really!!!

Par u noe uski thought bhi mere liye lucky hoti hai……..hope so is baar bhi aisa ho.!!!

Ok ok…….m not dewaana kinda person…..thtz how I think n feel…….”d unspoken words”!!!

Well aaj jub bus mai I was studing…..u noe andar se thoughts aa rahe the…….poem ki lines compose ho rahi thi……….jo ab yaad bhi nahi………….ab tell me this is worse naa……

Exam diya….uske baad….mere with 4 other ppl….ke paper alag teacher check karega…jo ki bohat hi khadus hai……as in…..he can fail a student on any basis…..

M still in a tensed state……!!! Save me lord!!

Third messed up thing happened was…..

Aaj mujhe aise hi painting karne ka mann kiya…….n I tell u maine puri painting bigaad di..coz I dint gave attention to wt brush m using…………..damn ….isse jyada worse kuch ni ho sakta aaj ke din mai…..inni silly si mistake………..aagghhhh!!!

Khair everyone is sayin….ki jo mai keh rahi hu unhe samjh ni aa raha….unke according..it was perfect……uff!!!

But I noe wt I messed!!

well......best or gud according to me.......well pehli baar maine jo pade the wo questions aaye...!!!

n yea wanna tell u sumthin blog...
u noe....many things happened in my life....well......few times ago i had loved sum1....n was amazingly questioned why he did that....well.....jo bhi hua...
u noe now i dun even feel anger....coz....one day he came n apologized......n one day he came n said yea u were ri8...
now tht moment........i was like......wtz next???
coz ........i was really questioned......ki kabhi use is chiz ka realization hoga ya nahi......but he did had it!!!

he sowed a seed o love for him once more......but thtz too late....i noe....nothing is too late....
i always hear wt my mind says.......i supress my heart.......well thtz too late either to think about...

i dun noe wtz next........but wheather it was a short time with u......had a best moments with u......u let me live my life.....ok.......m stopping here.......coz jyada likha to gadabad ho jayegi.....hehe......lolzZ!!