mess up queen

oh god......i dunnoe wt is goin on....
m jus having a "flood mind" problem......ssly.......thoughts thoughts....
i sleep these days like ........when i wake up....i feel i dint hav a sleep.....still in sumwhere else mode...
oh....aggh....
pura din sar dukhne lag jaata ahi...
n din bhar mai if i tell u how it thinks...n wt goes on...u ll not able to make it....is it a mind or error in a pc....

firstly...my days r goin lik hell....though m makin a way out....but stuk where i never wanted to be...
dun noe wt ll happen....feels as if....m getting sum kinda punishment...

feeling guilty here n there.....i feel any thing ended in ma life is due to me....it me....who is the bad one...who is the doer o every damage to every heart....

i hav jus becum recently...a "mess up Queen.".......ssly!!!

i mess with everyoone.. ...each one i met...

mujhe shaanti....peace o mind....i jus got by listing to few voices jinhe mere sunne ke naseeb  ni ha ab....i noe maine hi waha bhi mess create kari...

only thing left in ma life is muzic.....aah...i think ....thr wud b no music....i wud b dead coz o thinkin so much....

another thing..music sunnte bhi mind....here there......"roamer"....uh!!!

god gimme strenth...to cope up with me....thrz no one...jo mere aise thoughts sune....ab mai kisi ke paas jaati bhi nahi...jaakar bhi kya karu....

i noe few frnz r thr....but when i talk to them....things n thoughts changes...i feel lil diffrent...not as if m in sum prob...

i need really a big/small.....change...a gap from this life ....but after completing few pending...n messed up tasks....
:(((((((

take me away...to place....n tell me....i can jus sit n smile thr.....m tiered of crying....teired of thinking....tiered o feeling misreable...
wish u reading out thr...i ll write for a life time...

but i think...u too stoppped caring abt me...n ye i deserved it.....

cant stop my tears....kya hai ye mamala........jaanu na mai janu naa.......dil sambhal ja zara....yahi ruk ja zara....aage koi ni hai tere liye!!!

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