live again?can i?

I want to believe in love again

I want to feel the magic again

I want to trust again

I want to run amok for unknown again

Sometimes.... 

I just want to live again... 

I just want to have faith in almighty to present me with love

And to recognize it and not run away from it... 

I am afraid i will ruin everything.. 

I could be clingy

I could be over pouring.. 

Trusting is bit difficult... 

Complaining, ranting,  not living just cringing... 

It seems i am afraid of myself and how to just heal my wounds... 

I wish i could just start again... 

I could resolve all the conflicts...