closing thoughts

I asked u do many questions...at last one day you gave me an answer...  'life without you '.

All questions got dissolved... All fights got over. 

Well i wanted this to work... But everything i did went wrong.  I thought in Indore we ll finally have time... But it's funny...  Yes i wanted last time n all... But u needed your peace, you thought i would abandon you afterwards... So i understood you don't want me anymore... N its OK.. Everyone has their own choice. 

I know i did a lot of mistakes n sometimes i just think what could i have done differently that could make this relationship for forever... I can't undo what i have done... But certainly i can apologize for that.  I had issues... N before going into any relationship i would just want to clear those blockages n heal myself now... Even if it's with u... Whatever we set new beginning with boundaries... 

If u want we can still meet.. We can also practice meditation together... To heal each other... 

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But this is not serving me... I needed clarity which i never get.... When i wanted something badly ..u were determined to take control or being in charge.  TBH i have asked many times.. What am i doing here?  Why i am with him?... How casually u talk about other women... May it's just my insecurities... But isn't u the one who created this?. 

I know u won't stay now... U ll run away... Coz u have another girl in mind n another goal to serve... Go ahead... Why shall i cause unnecessary trouble. 

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I still wanted it to work... Coz i know i ll miss u... U were special to me.  How funny is it... We say special n we hurt them the most. .

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N about me... It's just timeline... If i win... It would be my game otherwise it's what parents want now. 

N sex.. Well i am not a one night stand person... So obviously i won't be doing randomly anywhere ever.  Last time also i did but i didn't liked it at all... 

But yes BDSM... If not with u... I won't b able to do with anyone... I know that.